Some people really need to mind there business

For ex. The parent...Im like seriously he pride himself on knowing my life and gets mad because I don't want to tell it. What the fuck are you serious dude?????!!!!?!?!?!?

Good Morning

Yeah its not a great day because I didnt want to get up but apparently I had too. So knbow Ima tackle this homework before it gets out of hand!!!!

Just thought I 'll let you know

I am the godmomma wham and thank ya ma'am!

Booya-Just to clarify that guythat told me he didn't love me like he used too still does lol

It hurt me though when he said that but in all honesty baby is the greatest. I can brag about that one because he fit me like a glove and I love it. Lately Ive been struggling with new stresses and irratation in my life and he is the FIRST person I go too. He make me feel good but I really don't want to get caught up in the love thing so young. I want to wait it out and actually have something that lasts and I don't think I'm capable of that at such a young age. Me and him both know that we want to do stuff that's crazy and stupid before we settle down. I can't totally speak for him though. I love that man omg. I don't even think about how long I have known him I just can't see no one else in that spot. He make me want to look good all the time for him because I knw he like that kind of stuff. I want to please him. But I'm also scared because I look at my family and there old relationships and honestly they all have failed ALL. I don't want that I want to touch basis with my boo. I want to make sure he happy with whatever he do. He make me happy so I feel like he is a good look for me. It's just like that!!! Interview tomorrow hopefully I get it. I love you baby and that will never stop!!!
Love, Honeyyy

School is in session

I had a ridicolous day at school today.It was so fast paced but I like it because I can get more done in the time that I am giving which is something that I need to learn. I like to be fierce and I am here to learn. I made small talk but I didnt actually make any friends.When I got home I got a call about a job.Yes finally my hard work has payed off.I am so happy and exhausted in the best way.I hope to recieve some more good news soon.All I have to do is have hope and faith.Soon to be tatted.Im a great gorgeous baby....I want to be red and yellow zebra stripes.grrrrrrrrrrr

Good morning Good morning

Well goodmorning and right know my life is being scheduled by the parents and I'm so sick of trying to live up to other people's standard.If I don't want this then what makes you think I'm going to get this.My mom who during highschool refused to get me birth control is know like hey you really need to get it.I think the lady is so oblivious to what kids are doing and she needs to get a clue before her other kids are fucked up too. I was a good kid and yeah I had sex but not with every guy.I controlled myself or either met a good guy who was attracted but in love with another girl. Good times but my game is top notch know only because I can see through other people's eye's.I'm trying to not let my past be a problem. I have thought about that guy here and there but nothing serious. He can kick it wherever he is not my concern and I actually like this. I have time to concentrate on me and only me. I don't want a guy who thinks he got to fuck the whole world of females before he find the one. I want some body who is eye level with me but totally different from me.I am a sexy beast.lol and I need to tell my cousin that I want to be the god momma.I really do and I think I will be a good god momma.

Dear burnt out flame,

When you told me you didnt love me like you used too.I admit I got upset.I felt like I had been played and that you were just a waste of time.I wanted you to roll over and die.I'm slowly getting over you though and know I'm learning that I got too much to look forward too instead of being grumpy.So I end my letter with this I learned from you in a sort of way and the next guy wont have to feel my harsh past because I know that's the main reason why I am hurt.I never had any guy put his faith in me for the long haul.So on to the next!!! =]

Hurt internally...

Yeah he did hurt me.I'm not over it but it's getting there.People expect you to be like them and when you aren't they claim you this and that.Look human I am what I am got it and if you have any complaints just drop them off and maybe if I give a fuck I'll pick them up.Im about to get real disrespectful all because of I hate the way people come at me.I need a nap and maybe a big box of chocalate's with a clean good man that won't dip out on me.I really just want that friend and lover type.I hate how he think he gone get his way.I just know that this time he not.I'm not gone be sitting on the porch when he come back.I'm going to have my own place.

Hmmmmmm a first for me...

Wow the first time a guy said he fell out of love with me.It's cool I just hate that alone feeling.I never want to talk to him again only because I don't see the point.I really don't want to be near any guys right know.I'm pretty sure the right one will come.I don't want to rush anything anymore.My life is changing in every aspect.I just need hope.That love thing is difficult because you feel like your nobody without anybody but its not like that really your the greatest strongest being.I want to prove my thesis so I will.I wasn't sad when he told me either.I sort of prepared myself.He is such a limp dick for not telling me straight out though. I want to get hope tatted on me because of guys. On my pinkie to be exact.We will see how that guys.

The naked truth:1 be respectful/sweet and the booty is soon to follow

Coming from a girls point of view I believe this to be true.I  mean if he look good and got all the main necessities then he can get some of what he want and what I want.Girls be fronting about sex.I know some of ya'll be wanting the same thing.It's crazy for some women if he got a girl and you hunch him and expect him to leave his girl for you then your crazy.Yeah in some cases he might do it but you will always be that hoe.ALWAYS.


Then before you act,Honeyy

A wise fellow once told me

Morning!My life is a blur because in all honesty I cant see where I'm going with my current career.By the end of this month though I will change that perspective.I really am in a funk[mentally] because it's not the best thing to happen to me.I must understand that I will venture out and be AMAZING.So whenever I have a negative thought.I will jog about it or yoga about it[Maybe even fuck about it].I just need that negative sport out of my life and bring on the positive.Wow I want some get loose on the rocks tonight lol.I cant wait to be great.Please please please hurry up!Wait be patient!Urggghhhh

Sweet,honeyy

Oh me Oh my Oh pie Oh sigh

Hi,good evening!Hope you had a great day!My stomach is in pain as of right know but I am surviving.I have my tattoo idea.I want it but I always seem to change my mind so I am going to ponder on it.I realize why he likes to call me honey know.It is really sweet and good.I love it and I love that name for me.I have learned how to deal with my everyday life better.You have to have the right skills to suceed in your life and I believe that I am on my way to fully grasping these traits.I cant wait till I get my own things so I can own up and actually grasp my life.I cant wait to get out there and just have fun.Right know =[ I am not.It's completely my fault though because I shouldn't rely on my parents to help me.They only know whats best for them.I look back and the things they made me do really dont compare to being with people and learning real life skills.I need to get out there and share with people.That's where the fun is at.I'm learning =].Smile and be friendly young grasshopper.-I Like your beard-
~Sweet,honeyy

Bee as it may...Get it

No regrets leads to a happy life.I understand that know and wish to elaborate on it.I want to ponder on it some more and then I eill act.I love spare of the moment things and if I dont think about it the crazier.I get.Rawwwwrrrrrrrrr I'm sweet and sexy.Kiss that bitches........voila.....I ran in the rain and lightning today and it was great[spare of the moment epihphany]

job searching

wow honestyly the most frustrating thing that has been due to this is my father.He thinks I am just sitting home doing nothing when in fact I am working my ass off.I have applied tto probably 100 stores and he thinks thee odds are with me when they are not.Get your head out your ass and realize that I am not stupid or lazy.urggggh

If you come by everynight you are not considered a guest

Seriously asshole you really must understand that your pissing me off and no one likes you like that.Thank you! Hi young women and young men. These last few days have been absolutely dreadful.I dont understand why I love him so much and why he drives me crazy.He is the sweetest guy to me and maybe I just need to get my foot back in the door.Disregard that and understand how crazy love makes you.I'm currently listening to Adina Howard and honey let me tell you something.If you are a freaky girl embrace that.I like it know and thrive of it.If anything it makes me more hornier than before.I cant wait to ride his pogostick.I really can't.I want to become more of a daring individual with a job of course.My lover needs to love me.He told me he will always love me and just wants me to be happy.The trick in that thought is I want to be happy with him and I cant be.I wish I had the guts to go see him but I also wish more that he had the guts to come see me.When I fantasize about him I see myself up there.I see myself putting in work for him.I know when I get him my dreams will become true.He said he was my prince.He told me everything I wanted to hear and meant it.He wont write me a letter though.Asshole....

REAL.i.zation baby

Hello folks people can not describe you or even sum you up because people are so versatile.If we do the same thing everyday and never change then hey I might be able to sum you up.Besides that though you should tell them losers to kick rocks who wants to define you all the time.I have this one loser who does that and likes to bring me down also but I deal with it because in his own way he has wisdom and hell yeah I dig the hook-ups and well its been so long.I just thought that it would be okay to mention that and oh yeah dont be a loser be whatever but not a loser....


Love ya Mi amor.....Honey Bxtches

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Enduring Lately...

I've had some pretty amazing moments lately.I have broaden my horizon and learned how to deal with people.It's been a serious blow horn to the head in a good way that is.  I made my first friend here via the internet and wow I couldnt believe that.I have been treating these days like summer and I learned that most of important:I HAVE TO MAKE MY OWN DREAMS COME TRUE. I used to be afraid of spending so much money and let me tell you...I have to if I'm going to make it. I have to learn how to live with a gay person and how that want you to be more cultured and outgoing.I am so lowkey though and I dont want to change for anybody.Im like a chameleon down here.Its so much change.  I hope I grow in the best way though and I want to be well rounded and versatile.I decided that I want to take in some light modeling and see where it takes me and why pursuing my career I believe that will be a kick notch for my well rounded ness.I'm doing it.I'm doing it all the way.I want to find love and lord knows I want to hit the club and meet people.I think that I need to just get used to being around them.I shy away from big crowds.If there is too many people at the gym than I am going back to the house.I want to shine and right know i'm learning what it takes to shine.I also want to look fabolous while im getting there.Im changing my style as we speak.

zàijiàn
That's bye in chinese.Pow I'm getting there.

Best advice I recieved this week:

Be different and if he barks like a dog he is a dog...If his possee is all dogs why would he be the only cat in the click???Know what you are around and Be different!!!

Hooters

That is my job goal as of right know.I really hope that I get this job.My dad is all happy that I am 18. I don't understand why but it's kind of cool. I can't wait till I go down there which is this weekend. I want to do my tongue ring and my dad doesn't even know about my lip ring.I keep it in know. It feels a little different know that I am grown. I will save up money to go see brandon and then I will be good.Iv'e wanted him for so long. Is this love?Heck yeah!!!I am starting to love life and hopefully my body is going to get me some money!!

What a day

My birthday is in two days and I will finally be 18.I know that is a good thing but right know I feel crappy as freak-a-zoids. My family is driving me crazy and as sane as I try to be I am about to lo0ooooooose it.My friend tried to keep me chill and it worked but know i'm just feeling crappy.My world is upside down and my mom isn't taking responsibility for her own kids.I hate that.Karma comes back around stupid bitches....lord forgive me.ALso I like the name lovely.I have been thinking about it!!!



Love,Honey