Boys,Boys,Boys....They drive me gaga and without the lady!!

So my new stand is be tough.Don't be so clingy it just sucks to have someone like that.I just recently got over this jerk and know he is back at it again with me.My heart though is not getting in it at all.Im tricking my mind into saying these boys don't care a cent about me.It is true however.I just have to believe it.Even the boy I love doesn't get at me.I start to freak out thinking that no one will ever be like him and it's true.They won't. If I fall in love it will be better.I just have to teach myself that it will be outstanding.I need to learn.My heart gets me into trouble.I wont wear it on my sleeve anymore. Tomorrow I'm going to talk to a long time crush and get him off my chest once and for all.I have been drooling over him for almost a year. He drives my hormones crazy.I really like him :]. This boy only want my sex and I'm not going to let him get that. I only will if I feel like I need sex but besides that I'm not going to stunt him.He has played these same games all year and I'm at that point in my life where I dont want to make the same mistakes.I said I was going to change and I will.I need some help but I'm so appreciative of the person I'm becoming. I always said I didnt want to be like my moms.  You have real power when you can turn your anger into passion.It's a very blessed thing.It makes you driven and will end up in a happy place.Stay in a happy place :].